i'm just myself

I gotta feeling..

2011-01-27T23:08:00.001+08:00

Name:	melissa
Date:	Thursday 27th 2011f January 2011 03:03:09 PM
Colorgenics Number:	4/0/2/6/5/1/7/3/

Life for some time now has been somewhat depressing and you feel 'under the weather'. You are looking for a means by which you can escape from all the pressures of everyday life. But you must remember that the 'Past does not equal 'Tomorrow'. You are seeking a way to escape from all the trials and tribulations that oppress you at this time, but at least you haven't given up - if one pattern of behaviour doesn't seem to work then you'll change it for another.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

#2010

2011-01-06T21:12:00.016+08:00

Hi there! I've not been blogging for months and i really mean by month(S)! Idk why these few days I've been having the urge to blog again, wanting to summarize what i had for the whole year. Though it's kinda late but it's never too late if you really want it to happen, quote from idk who. Lol.

Anyway, the first quarter of 2010, it's all about FYP(Final Year Project). So I'm very glad that my dad helped me, as usual. He has the patience which I definitely do not possess. He very much assist me like a secretary and i felt relieved that I'm not fighting this alone.

January: Anyway at the start of 2010, i nearly ditch my boyfriend for another guy. It was purely my fault, really. I was a bitch. I know that i'm attached for 2 years plus already and YET i did that to him. So this guy whom i know at a birthday texted me and we continue this for around a month? I was kinda obsessed in him because i seem to lose the feeling of dating a guy and knowing someone right from the start. However, we know that this will never be a good ending to it anyway. Thereafter, i obviously anchored to my boyfriend once again because he's afterall the safest one for me to rely on and share everything. The guy made me treasured my boy even more because I'll not let it happen again.

April: The next best thing of 2010 was to go Taiwan after my graduation from Singapore Polytechnic. The trip was really AWESOME, the perfect word to describe it. Travelled w 17 other friends, including boyfriend. The whole trip was well planned and the best getaway after 3 years of struggle in school back then. We had lots of fun and tried most of the food over there. However we only get to conquer Taipei but i would love to visit the other states of Taiwan. I'll prolly post some pictures so that you can roughly see them.

May: After the getaway will be the reality. I've promised SYRB to commence work in May which is after my trip. Well, what more can i say? Working life definitely sucks. Although the good thing about this company is that there is no politics and colleagues will help one another when we gotta rush for projects or meetings. You know in some corporate firms, they don't even give a shit about you and it will be even better when you fail to submit on time. Pros and cons though. The cons will be the working hour and pay. My pay is not even equal to my friends who got the same diploma as me. I'll only be able to hit their pay after a year. Can you imagine how long will it take? I'm like doubly slower than them? I have thoughts of quitting yet i think i'll miss my colleagues. They are nice. We even thought of planning a Bkk trip on the end of January. But this is still KIV cause they are on tight budget now. Also, we went clubbing once and it was really fun. I can't club very often due to relationship but i would love to club every weekend. Hahaha.

August: The next sadest thing of 2010 is Cindy's departure from us. Well, I have to admit that we are not those die-hard friends but she's really nice and sweet. The Taiwan trip includes her and everyone had fun. Boyfriend and I, together with moonkian and her shared a room in the hotel. We hang out on the last day of Taiwan trip together, just the two couples. We eat and shop like mad because we gotta save and catch every minute that we had. Her departure was really sudden and it's the last thing you would ever thought of to happen on a 19 years old girl. It was very heart aching to see her parents, siblings, friends and moonkian to cry for her. Everyone doesn't want her to leave but the devils are cruel enough to take her away from us )':

September: Oh well, it was my 20th birthday on September. This year birthday was nothing much. Boyfriend is in camp and by then when he comes out, he was kinda tired to do anything. We had dinner, shop for my present, cut the cake and caught a movie. Oh btw, he fell asleep. But at least the next day, my family and him went to Batam. The trip was kinda screwed at the start because of me. I didn't know that there would be a time whereby we have to board the ship before it actually departs. But still, we manage to go there and though my mom doesn't really like it cause when she does her massage, the curtain will tend to open when people walk past. She felt terrorized by people peeping in which i can forsee it's -0.1%. Hahaha, I'm oh so mean.

October: A cruise trip to the Superstar Virgo totally brightens up my mood for the whole month. It was obviously fun to me because i get to travel with my parents and my baby. The perfect combination of all times. It was just a relax and chill out trip. All i want is to enjoy the company with them and eat to our fill. Laugh like we have never done before due to all the quarrels we had back then. I felt like a whole once again. But anyway, my relatives mocked at my dad for still hanging out w us those my parents had already divorced. So what! I don't even give a fucking damn because as long as we are happy, who the fuck are you to interfere into our happiness? You're purely building up your misery on top of ours.

December: There are couple of long holidays for this month and i feel that the christmas celebration with my colleagues was really fun and heart warming. Just a simple dinner and gathering all together just feel so much like a big family. The next celebration was with my friends. It was quite a disappointment because it wasn't as fun as i thought it would be as compared to last year. I don't feel happy at all. Well, but i personally feel that the new year countdown was a slight improvement. We managed to catch fireworks and went to Henderson Waves to chill. At least it's a proper place to chill you know. Not like some crapshit place whereby you'll be afraid that the police may drop by anytime.

All in all, this year wasn't that bad but find that it passes a little too fast when i started working, Everyday is all about facing the computer and soon, a week will just pass. Like a blink of an eye, like a G6. Hahhaha, no link. Alrighto, i doubt anyone will read this but still, i feel happy by blogging. Seeyea.

2010-08-23T11:10:00.002+08:00

if you actually know me well, you might know that my parents are actually divorced and almost every saturday night or alternate saturdays, i'll go to my dad's place to sleepover and the next day, we'll hang out together.

So yesterday, which is a sunday, my dad's side relatives mostly all came back to give offerings to my ancestors. Thereafter, they started talking about my family's problem and discussing and etc. Talking bad about my mom and blah. I was all along in the kitchen and heard everything. I felt very affected by it. Not that i'm siding my mom or my dad but i don't like my family's problem to be shared w the rest and become a topic for them to gossip about. This is not a very glamorous thing at all, so i don't see a point to gossip and rant on other's family issue. I wanted very much to go to the living hall and scream my lungs out at them but i bottled it up because i don't want them to think that i'm disrespecting them.

Last night when my mom got home, she started complaining non stop about a quarrel with my dad. i felt very affected that i don't want my parents to quarrel anymore. What's the point of all the quarreling after the divorce? divorce means to go on separate ways and i want them to lead a happier life than before. The gossipings are actually affecting them and leads to all the quarrel all over again.

I was so pissed and angry that i called all my relative and told them not to interfere into my family's business anymore. I tried my best to lower down my tone and talk to them nicely but i guess they'll still feel offended. Lastly, i called my dad to tell him that i called all of them. He wasn't angry until all of them started calling him and complained that i'm very disrespectful to them. my dad finally called and ask me not to go to his place anymore. Nice. I just want my parents to be happy but what i've got, is this.

This is getting out of hand

2010-07-24T01:53:00.001+08:00

This is getting out of hand

2010-07-24T01:53:00.000+08:00

2010-05-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

2010-05-13T15:32:00.002+08:00

CCB! FUCK, IM SO FUCKING PISSED. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE THIS FUCKING COMPANY. IF OTHER MY PROBATION, I THINK I'LL GET BACK TO FROLICK AND WORK. START SAVING MONEY AND STUDY, DON'T GET TO THIS FUCKING SOCIETY! WORKING LIFE SUCKS, EVERYDAY IS LIKE AGONY, AT LEAST IN SCHOOL, YOU HAVE YOUR FREEDOM TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. WHEREAS THIS SHIT HERE IS LIKE SOME RESTRICTED BOUNDARY . WHATEVER YOU DO, PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AND SPOTTING! FUCK, I REALLY HATE THIS CB LIFE OF MINE!

2010-03-27T01:57:00.002+08:00

well, i know i've not been blogging for 3 months and i don't even intend to blog anymore because i'm just plainly too lazy. however, i feel like having someone to talk to and i know its only you who can listen to me and never reply and shoot me back right in the face. so yeah, we quarreled again. like how many times per week man seriously? okay, maybe im the one who started first? but all i ask for is you having and spending more time for me. when you plan that for example today you're going out with your friends, and all you plan for is the schedule of what time you're waking up, to prepare and to meet them. ever thought of breaking down the time to meet me? yes, i know we're living like next block now but that doesnt mean that this can lessen down the time to meet together. like dont take it for granted that i'll live here forever. i will still move out one day and by then, i doubt you'll even plan time to go to my new place to find me.

it just hurts so damn fucking much that you told me that you smoke again. after like what? 2 years of quitting and now you smoke once again. i feel that all the effort that you have taken to quit has gone down the drain. well, maybe smoking will make you feel better then so be it. its your health, not mine. so no worries either. i can dont give a damn but i just feel sad. purely heartache but im sure i'll be fine in a very short while.

all along it has been me who initiates all the break up, some of them are to test test you but some are definitely not. i have many considerations in mind that will we end up splitting after your army which will be commenced in a few months time. which means, i'll end up wasting 4 years of my bloody youth. anyway, the main point is that all along has been me. but today after the quarrel, you told me that you're considering if we should. out of a sudden, i feel that its not me anymore who have the thought of leaving, but you. i felt so vulnerable. like a part of me wants that to happen and another doesn't. the part of wanting is that i can open up to the forest out there to slowly choose a reliable tree that can last me till marriage and old. the other side is because i really love you way too much.

its beyond words and it has slowly become a habit of being with you and taking you for granted. its like i know you'll be there for me. whenever i need your help such as printing and etc, you never failed to help. i know you've been helping me out all these while however, whenever you need my help. i'll procrastinate till theres no tomorrow. maybe im one that is so laid back that i can just even forsake and let laziness overwhelmed me to the point that i dont even bother surfing the net to check out more info about it. till the point whereby my cousin asked me to go for career fair then i start to take a step out.

well, for now all i want to say is that be it you want to be with me or not, i shall just respect your decision.

2010-01-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

New Year's Resolutions (after 2 weeks trial of 2009) :

~~slim down: targeted weight- 45kg~~
~~wear with more fashion sense~~
~~improve on my autocad drawings~~
save my family.
~~spend lesser money and save more~~
~~to go for another holiday this year end with family or geek's family~~
~~spend more time at home with my parents~~

So i shall happily bid goodbye to 2009. This year has been a hectic year for me. Especially the days at Dalian where i become so alone and independent for once. No need to rely on my parents for meals and everything, i'm all on my own. But yet, really feel that i was all along so reliant on them and miss them terribly much.

Another hectic and hell will be my Interior Design project that totally drained me physically and mentally. I've never felt so tired and on the verge of breaking down just to do the previous project: Body as Surface. A 1:1 scale model also made me know that my parents never fail to back me up and have been always there for me whenever i needed someone to help me. I really love them a lot deep down.

On the other hand, as for me and TaWei, our relationship was not that smooth this year. We quarrelled way too much and things were rocky back then. Really hate the feeling of feeling so insecure. Now, i must treasure all the times with him before he gets into NS and by then, we wouldn't even have time to meet, what's more quarrel.

Resolution for 2010!

Do well for this FYP and graduate from SP in peace
Get into SIA to be an air stewardess! (OMG!!! I REALLY WANT TO BE ONE! please please please)
Stay strong with my dearest baby and celebrate our 3rd year
Spend more time with my mom at home
Find my dad more more more often
Go on a holiday with my friends and mom and dad and boyf!
Give me more freedom and stop controlling me like a puppet

2009-12-26T23:53:00.001+08:00

HA LLLLLLOOOOOOO MAO MAO! I'M YOUR NEW NEIGHBOUR! HEEE HEEE! I LUB YOU BABY! <3!

2009-12-04T10:32:00.001+08:00

2009-11-13T00:21:00.001+08:00

HKHKHKHKHKHK! MAMA LOVES YOU! I COME FIND YOU NOWWWWWW!

2009-10-31T09:48:00.002+08:00

Tea Time buffet at Sakae! <3s!>

Will you allow me to be there for you?

2009-10-09T23:50:00.003+08:00

Why are you casting me out of your boundary? I really want to be there for you whenever you need me. But why are you treating me like an outsider? I want to be part of your life and share your woes with you. Please stop pushing me away. How can I make you really feel the love you want from a girl. Someone please teach me. I may not be the perfect girl on earth but I'm willing to male you happy and be the one who's always there supporting and backing you up when need that special someone. I love you.

http://goldinuniverse.com

2009-10-02T12:34:00.001+08:00

Name: melissa
Date: 10/2/2009
Colorgenics Number: 31205476

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influenceand there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

2009-09-05T00:08:00.001+08:00

2009-08-03T16:42:00.003+08:00

I found this video when i was clearing my stuff to prepare for reformat tmr! I NEVER REFORMAT MY LAPPY SINCE I BOUGHT IT! I FEEL SO INSECURE MAN.

2009-08-03T14:17:00.002+08:00

DESIGN STUDIO(10%) - C+

INTERIOR TECHNOLOGY(15%) - C+

DESIGN JOURNAL(5%) - A

P.S. Take note of the percentage.

Family

2009-08-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

Today went for cycling expedition with Derrick and Pres! How cool, Pres doesn't have to go to granny's place. The more the merrier. BTW! It's hell for me. All the up slopes can keeeeel me and im like walking and running with my bike. Down slopes = SHIOK! Haha, hope there will be more so that i can lose my chicken chop. Haha. Dinner with my parents at Sakae Sushi. It's been a long time since we sat down together and have dinner. It's either i eat alone or with my dad. Overall, not a bad day! (:

2009-07-29T09:27:00.003+08:00

What happens when we are in studio..

What happens on the bus..

2009-07-27T11:19:00.002+08:00

Boohoohoo! It's been a long time since i last blogged. Last friday we had a submission and it's going to be reviewed like now. At least i can have a stressed-free weekend. So, what's up for weekend? Last friday went to see geek's band jam and helped to do some video-ing. Browsed around Ion and yeah, home while quarrelling. Next, saturday. Work at Frolick, accompany geek and his friends to get geek's bass, dinner, Harry Potter and quarrel again! @!#$%^*&^%$#@! Like what he has mentioned on Twitter, another fucked-up quarrel. Oh well, maybe to him everytime is my fault but i think we should consider each other's feeling. But to him it's also about, so what we have considered. What's the solution to what he should do? Should he send me home or just take 133 home with this friends? Whatever. Seriously, don't want to talk about it already.

What's more his band is up, what's left for me? Nothing. He wouldn't have much time for me and most of his time will all be on his band. They're planning activities even on saturdays when they already jam on fridays. Like hello? When can we have some personal time? I used to always want to hang out with them but i start to feel that i'm losing him slowly. Ah, Fuck! BYE!

PCK is my ah-lao.

2009-07-19T13:33:00.004+08:00

FYI, i went to site on thursday. Look like some cock shit wearing the helmet and boots. Aiya, i'm kind of lazy to post pictures already. One minute ago i had but now, no. Anyway, want some bananas?

2009-07-15T20:08:00.002+08:00

Fuck cats. Today a cat just brushed past my leg. I feel so traumatised. Again, fuck cats.

2009-07-13T20:21:00.001+08:00

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

2009-07-13T19:54:00.003+08:00

Pre-dinner snacks: Peanut, Milo Powder and Pork Floss. I just found them randomly in the kitchen and i'm already half-full. I wonder if Harald reads this(which is 0.0000001%), i think these are only his appetizers.

The Make-up Plan

2009-07-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

Hey man! I wanna learn how to wear make-up. Hmm, more of those eyeliner thingy that can enhance the eyes than those like whole face kind of thing. OH WELL. But, i'm like a make-up idiot. I consulted syai on how to wear eyeliner and she taught me and blah. I think i'll look like a shito luhhh.

Yesterday went out with geeko! I think my PMS is overpowering me. You know i just get very cranky and like wanna get some fight or something. Yeah, i know it sucks. But i'm sure i'll be back to normal soon, okeyyy. Actually i'm fine already, hiak! Today went Rachel's house, supposed to like study together with eel but in the end, we ended up watching HARRY POTTER and NEW YORK MINUTE! Oh ya, did i jist said Harry Potter? Know what?! The other day i just dreamt that we went to Kopitiam ate roti prata. Damn lame righttt. I know. So they reached airport and my dear harry called me and said he reached. So i was like, "hey! you reached! where's ron?" You know, act like one damn close friends. LOL!

So, they reached kopitiam and my mom was there too. I intro my mom to them and she like shy? And kind of shocked to see Harry Potter. Maybe kena shocked by the lighting thingy. So that's about it. And that New York Minute, gawd! Mary-kate is like cool. I love her eyessss! That's why i sorta get influenced by the eyeliner thingy!

P.S. I wanna use Twitter too. Even Frolick has Twitter! I also wanna tweet tweet too!

2009-07-10T16:43:00.003+08:00

Fuck today man! I'm like soooo not in the mood to study. I just don't have the motivation to study. After yesterday's tutorial, i felt so demoralised and disheartened. I thought that i'm on the right track but it turns out to be otherwise. I listen to this lecturer and another shit to be to do another one. So wtf you want me to do? I really feel like killing all the lecturers and make them into a device instead. At least i know what i'm doing. @#$#@%$&^*&$%#@!

2009-07-08T11:04:00.001+08:00

So contradicting. Wearing Starbucks yet selling YO-GHART! Top it up man! It's just a buck! ilu, ghart ghart.

P.S. stay away from geeko..

19th

2009-07-06T15:58:00.002+08:00

Adverts of the day.

2009-07-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

2009-06-29T20:41:00.001+08:00

So sick of it, yet not wanting to let go.

Gone.

2009-06-28T00:33:00.004+08:00

I'll be there, Jackson 5. My favourite song in Choir and i bet I'll never forget this song.

P.S. You'll be missed, Michael Jackson..

2009-06-24T02:33:00.001+08:00

I know deep down he thinks i'm his Fiona Xie. Hhmmmmm...

2009-06-22T18:20:00.003+08:00

Wtf! Look at this and the votes for extended holidays. Funny or what! LOL!

What's interest?

2009-06-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

Is interest something that you can give up so easily? I look at a friend of mine jam and i've got a sudden rush of emotions and feelings. He gave up his interest in being a drummer just for his girlfriend. Like hello? how many years of being a teen left? I can bloody hell count it using a hand. If someone really loves you, he/she will not forsake and asks you to stop. What's more it's because she's afraid that he might be famous and girls will look upon him. Oh well. STFU man. GET A LIFE BITCH

Self Grooming

2009-06-17T14:21:00.003+08:00

I finally do treatment to my hair after like 21325483592359 years of nagging from my mom. I removed my chocolate nair polish and trying to have a slight makeover to make myself looks clean.

Btw! Check this out! I found these in my mom's cupboard! Soooo vintage(to me) and that i don't have to spend money to buy bagssss anymore! (: I DIG GOLD!

2009-06-14T23:51:00.003+08:00

Absence make heart grows fonder. I'm so in love with you, baby. I want to be with you every hour, every minute and every second. I know i sound kind of scary but that's how i feel right now and everyday. Love you from the bottom of my heart, Koh Ta Wei.

They have attained the level of Almighty Buddha

2009-06-11T12:48:00.003+08:00

Tell me about it

2009-05-23T03:32:00.002+08:00

Have you ever encounter the feeling of flying up high and dropping down dead? I just experienced it from the person whom I deeply love. The feeling goes like you initially have a stomach filled with excitement to meet that person, not physically. But your excitement did last till the very last moment when the person informed you by just an SMS saying that he/she couldn’t make it. A long enduring 5 hours of waiting ended like this. How cool is that? Sometimes I really ponder whether it’s worth waiting or not? Time is not a problem, but the ache that hurts deep down is the thing that matters the most.

Ever wonder why the person will do this to you? I don’t mind telling you this which is because I’ve made a mistake before and that he/she could not forgive me. I know it’s hard but I’ve tried my very best to do what I can. Maybe the pain does not apply to me that is why I said, karma does come, it’s just a matter of time. Another reason why the person may do this to you is because he/she thinks that you deserve it! He/she should spite you real hard to make you feel how he/she felt that time.

All in all, I wasn’t angry at all. Oh well, maybe I do feel it but not to the extent of exploding. It’s just a tinge of pain and hurt inside, but it’s alright as I’m sure I’m a strong person who can overcome such minor stuff in no time. I guess sometimes you do not have to put too much in a relationship as there may be no return or that the return comes with revenge.

2009-05-13T15:29:00.004+08:00

Love is in the air people! I'm so glad and happy to see my Epsilon kids got attached to our very own CSCC mates. It's like it widens the family tree! Okay, whatever. I think i sound like they're going to make babies and continue the generation. HAHA. Anyway, Congrats, although i'm like a month lag behind but i'm still happy for y'all! Loves Loves Loves!

P.S. For those who are not, it's time to take action!

2009-05-12T11:57:00.006+08:00

Hey, show you some pictures of the last time me. You will then realise that how much have i grown, in terms of size and maturity.

Year 3!

Year 3

Year 2 end

Year 2

Year 1

Sec 4

Sec 3!

2009-05-12T09:53:00.000+08:00

I guess we’re both tired about this. Everyday’s questioning is like hell to you and me. I know that sooner or later, this will go real bad and we’ll say goodbye in no time. How I wish I’m in SG so that everything will be fine. I guess this is a real test to our relationship. So what if it’s already 17 months? A 10 years marriage can also just end like this because there is no- trust. On a brighter note: I’ll be back in 3 weeks time!

A day which can't be celebrated

2009-05-06T09:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 17TH, BABY! I really hope to hug you and say this in your ear, but i doubt i can ):

2009-04-27T09:58:00.002+08:00

heyyyy, i will be having another blog that updates my everything in Dalian. Check them out! it's a 2 months blog yooooo. http://www.melissa-lowguanyi.blogspot.com

2009-04-17T08:45:00.000+08:00

Love in any language, this is for you.

2009-04-11T21:37:00.006+08:00

AFTERMATH!

SEAFOOD PLATTER FOR 2!

BUTTER AND GARLIC MUSSELS! YUMSSSS XD

GARLIC BREAD

WAITER OF THE DAY, GEEEEEEK.

MODEL FOR THE DAY. HAHAHA!

The longest escalator in the new shopping mall. i think this shopping mall is just like Bugis St in air conditioned.

durian-licious, MAMA-MIA! (((:

I'm just so sick of quarrelling with my mom. SHE IS SO FUCKING IRRITATING AND ANNOYING. PICKING QUARREL WITH ME IS JUST LIKE HER HOBBY AND A MUST! SHE SHOULD JOLLYWELL JUST FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!

on a lighter note, Geek and i went out on GF and went to buy a webcam for myself and a mouse for fucker mom. Had Manhattan Fish Market for dinner. Shall show you all the pictures. Geek is out with his friends for movie. Don't know why i miss him although we were just hanging out the whole afternoon. Maybe it's after the quarrel with my mom that i want some company. I think i should just be alone for now and watch tv. Bye.

Geek's birthday peeeeeektures

2009-04-10T12:39:00.012+08:00

The last picture of the day.

O.O Geek's so man here. all his friends don't know how to start a damn fire. hahaha

i don't know why i look like Lucinda, if you watch 'knowing', you'll know.

outside shawn's condo

Geek looking kind of pathetic, hahaha.

twisting for the camera, yo.

the sign that he unknowingly has when he's scared.

the start of the FINALE!

at Escape's Orange Julius

at the Pirate Ship

can see that he's feeling a bit unwilling to smile cause it's damn HOT! OR MAYBE ITS ME LAH! LOL!

GOOOOOO KART

I think i look like ET.

on the bus, after he bought me Mac breakfast! (((((:

Milo w/o ice, just nice for me (:

Clue 4

Clue 3

Clue 2

Clue 1

Cluessssssss

2009-04-07T10:38:00.004+08:00

16th: May it be just a Confession Of A Shopaholic, i'm very happy and willing to spend every minute and moment of my life with you. iloveyou, KTW.

Geek's birthday in advance!

2009-04-05T15:47:00.005+08:00

Hi there! yesterday i celebrated geek's birthday for him before i go China, Dalian. seriously, i regretted going. but i guess everything is too late. so, i can just wait for time to past asap. anyway, yesterday was the celebration and i planned it since one month ago because i know that i'm one who's very last min and i will just screw things up without proper planning. hence, everything was well-planned with his friends. so here it goes.

i reached amk at around 830 and we are supposed to meet 10 at harbourfront. we actually said that we're going to sentosa but it's all a lie. i said to go sentosa because i want him to wear shorts and you know those casual outfit. i reached amk and started the stations. i went to paste clue no 4, 2, 3, 1 respectively. everything was well planned. okay, i will tell you the places of each clue.

his house door. this is to make sure he can see it. Gift: a wooden photoframe with hand drawn happy birthday and a picture of us at marina barrage
the hosereel at his void deck, near the lift. Gift: a hand made bracelet with two beads
the playground downstairs. Gift: a poster of him, pasted on the playground
at the prata house. Gift: from Daiso, paper clips
at the bus stop. Gift: Escape tickets (the tix belongs to him. lol)

i planned for everything that day to be cheap yet memorable. there's no need for expensive gifts or great dinner or lunch. so i stationed at the carpark under his house. i actually wanted to take pictures of him at every station, his reactions and etc. BUT! i think i was unlucky, when i was at the carpark, i saw him open his gate and i was like, omg. it's going to start but i suddenly feel that i want to SHIT! oh no, not at this point of time. i wanted to run to the coffeeshop and have a quick one but oh well, i shall suck it back in and wait till this race ends.

i changed my hiding place and hide outside the shops. i could monitor him from that spot after his 3rd clue. which means he had to walk to the 4th one and i can see him walking. i was sitting on the floor and everyone walking past was looking at me, wondering why don't i sit on the bench which is just right in front of me. initially, i told him to give me a call when he's out of the house, but he didn't. and i'm not sure whether he has seen the clue or not. so i called and you know, he likes to play a prank on me and act as if, like HUH? I'M AT THE BUS STOP WAD! super cb! so, i was like, "EH, YOU DON'T ACT ONE SMART IN FRONT ME. STOP BEING A SPOILER AND SPOIL MY PLAN." anyway, he has already seen the clue and on his way to clue 2. i waited for him to appear and when waiting, i actually wanted to give up everything, i don't know why.

so he finally appeared. but he's not walking the route that i thought he will. he was walking towards my direction. omg, i started crawling on the floor so that the bushes can cover me. i just feel that i look like a dog man. there's one little girl saw me crawling and she just stand there and watch me do my stunts. okay, he didn't see me. when i saw him walking to clue 4, i faster went to paste the clue 5 which is at the bus stop. i was afraid that people might take the clue you see. so didn't paste it there until i saw him walking to clue 4. i continue hiding and monitoring so as to ensure that clue 5 is still safe. he was supposed to come to the clue 5 bus stop, but he ended up crossing over and go to the one opposite. i called him to told him that he's at the wrong one. i know that he will see my clue 5 so i faster went to shit.

i supposed he will board 88 and go to pasir ris bus interchange. i called him to re confirm and he's on the bus. i waited for 88 for around 10 mins and it finally arrived. however, geek suddenly call me and said that he thinks he never lock his gate. i was like, how can that be? the gate is those that you have to lock to get your keys out. RAHHHHHHHH! i was so angry you know. he spoils my plan all the time and now i have to waste my time to walk all the way back to his house and its not just beside the bus stop! THE GATE WAS ALREADY LOCKED! DOUBLE RAHHHHHHHHHH! i walked back and just then my 88 comes, so it wasn't that bad. he called and asked me where i am and i told him i'm on 88. so he asked double deck or single? i was like double. so the bus travels to buangkok, hougang... i was listening to mp3 so didn't notice my surrounding. suddenly, someone nudged me at the side, so i turn and was stunned. he was beside me holding mac breakfast!

WHY ARE YOU HERE??!?!?! AREN'T YOU SUPPOSED TO BE AT PASIR BUS INTERCHANGE?! he said he got down to buy me breakfast cause he thought that i will be hungry as i run here and there to set up stations. i have to admit that i was touched. HAHAHAHA! umm, yup. so we reached bus interchange and went to Escape. many rides were closed and they were the most fun of all. so we only took go cart, pirate ship, the kids mini roller coaster and haunted house. it rained heavily after that and we decided to just go to his house. so i purposely asked him what he wants for dinner. i lied to him and said i found out one 'PRAWN FEAST' at Sembawang. i still said it was yuping who introduced me and she went with ben before... blah, it's all crap. i have to make it sound more real you see. so we went to his house to shower because outside was way too hot. we rest for a while and started my finale.

he still thought we are going for prawn feast. when we reached his void deck, i took out a blindfold and guided him along the way to take cab. he know the environment too well so i have to bring him around to confuse him. i told the car driver the destination and told him not to talk at all. geek got into the cab and we headed to serangoon, shawn's house. we reached and we waited for the 3 of them because they went to get drinks. actually, the thing is that i want to make this whole celebration into 2 parts. the 1st half of the day is only the two of us, the 2nd half will involve his friends. cause i know he's the kind who likes to hang out with his friends. i know his friends quite well, so we discussed this together and organised a bbq for geek.

i led him into the condo and slowly towards the pit. everyone was there and so i said, you can take out your blindfold already. they initially wanted to push him down the pool. and i was like HUH! DOWAN LAH.. cause geek looks kind of pathetic when he's on the blindfold. haha! he just feels so vulnerable and i can sense his fear when guiding him. he said he can't really trust me because there were a few times that i forgot to tell him there's curb or something and he nearly fell down. hahaha! so he took out his blindfold and all his friends were around here. i felt a sense of achievement that i can finally plan an event and i think it was very successful because he was surprised by both parts of the surprises. i told him before that i want to make this birthday a very memorable one because this will be the last 19 birthday before he hits 20 and i wouldn't be with him during the actual one.

we had bbq and some went swimming. i thought that i could stay over but i can't. my mom wants me to go home or either i go over to my aunt's place to overnight which is very near shawn's place. but still, i dowan to disturb them at the middle of the night. so i intended to go home. i really didn't want to go because i haven even cut the cake with him and that i want to spend more time with him on this birthday. was quite sad when i gotta go. oh well, let's not talk about this. i will post the pictures but we didn't even take a group photo with his friends. but its okay. i just hope that he can enjoy this birthday and may it be the most memorable of all (:

2009-04-01T08:37:00.003+08:00

APRIL FOOOOOOOOOOOOOL PEEEEEEPOS!

i think i successfully punked liwei! yes! ON THE OTHER HAND, I FAILED TO PUNK GEEK! HE'S TOO CLEVER TO BE PUNKED! SUCH AN ASSSSSSS. ROARRR!

attttttttttt work. i'm so bored of it and i dread coming to work EVERYDAY!

2009-03-31T09:53:00.003+08:00

HELLO!

my dear geek and i went ZOOOOOOOO on saturday. it's our first time visiting zoo together because the past few times i went zoo with my friends. but we two have been to Night Safari for a couple of times. the trip there was not bad or should i say it could be better if i can be happier. the weather was too hot that it made me felt so irritated. but geek was there for me when i'm hungry and we ate KFC for tea break. some parts of the zoo is quite smelly, like him. HAHAHA. we took pictures and oh well, his camera's battery was dead when we were at 3/4 of the trip.

i think the most funny part was when we going to the rainforest. because outside the gate, it states that there are butterflies, FRUIT BATS, and etc. umm, i'm actually very scared of bats because i used to think that they are vampires. sigh, it's all because of Twin Effects the movie that makes me has the wrong idea of bats. sooo, when we walked into the rainforest, i was hugging him so tightly and keep pushing him to walk faster. BUT, i don't know why it was so misty in front, so we decided to WALK BACK AGAIN! omg, i just feel like crying. i'm so scared that the bats will suck my blood up dry and eat me -.- i know this is getting lame and he said BATS EAT FRUITS.

there was another thing thats very funny. we walked past the lion 'section'. there were only two lioness there, no lion king at all. so everyone was like, ahhh, let's go. thereafter, we heard like roaring of 'lions', so i was telling geek that maybe the lion has come out. so we faster run back and neglected the leopard. however, it was still the lioness thats roaring at another lioness. the second time, we heard roars again. so we run back AGAIN. in the end, IT'S STILL THE LIONESS! WHERE THE HELL IS LION KING?!?! ROARS!

we went back to school for FO nightwalk. umm, i think i got quite sian when i know that my station is at the lift. i think lift is so damn boring. we just have to pess the lift and scream. we decorated the lift with obituary and off the lift lights, hang red light sticks, put a table with a tablet and thats all. i think that our station is quite boring until when the whole thing starts, i don't really dare to go into the lift. because the pictures of the dead souls seemed like it's staring at you... nightwalk ends at 6am, shower and slept till 11am. wanted to go sentosa with geek and friends to celebrate christie's birthday. but i guessed i was too tired and decided to go home and sleeeeeeeeeeeeep.

2009-03-26T08:38:00.004+08:00

YOU BLOODY MOTHER FUCKER, DUN EVEN UDNERSTAND A SINGLE SHIT OF ME! I SHALL JUST WASH MY HANDS OFF YOU! YOU SUCK BALLS, ASSHOLE!

It's all about me..

2009-03-25T20:10:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

(i found if out EEL's blog and went to check it out! it's very true for me!)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I only live once

2009-03-25T19:54:00.003+08:00

Hi there, few days back i was chatting with Evangeline on MSN. It has been quite a long time since we last chatted. She has graduated from SIM which she just started i think when i was in Year 1. It's kind of WTH when i started earlier than her and ended one year later. Come to think of it, it's quite a waste of time studying in Poly.

Anyway, i asked her what's she doing now, she said..... so it goes on and on. Then she said she wants to go for interview for Air Stewardess. And then, it reminds me that this is my dream. A very long dream that i used to have, or maybe now because she makes me realise that i should go ahead and pursue what i dream of in life. "I only live once.." This is my own personal quote to myself. I have been wanting to be an Air Stewardess since donkey years ago but many obstacles LAH. Like the height problem which is like short of 0.5 cm? And that i kept thinking that i study so hard and wasted so much of my time and money in ID and now i'm giving up and go for other stuff. I guess this will be my greatest obstacle that makes me stop dreaming.

Another issue was that geek and me qarrelled very badly for this which is the 'clubbing' thingy. It was because i want to club, again, "I only live once.." I mean i only live once for true and that why is this relationship stopping me to do things that i want to do and fulfil. Oh well, i guess i should stop saying if not we may quarrel for real AGAIN.

That's all for today.

What's your italian name? try this out!

2009-03-23T08:57:00.002+08:00

Your Italian Name Is: Viviana Gallo

Ciao!

What's" Your Italian Name?

prawn fishing!

2009-03-22T15:38:00.009+08:00

yesterday geek and i went prawn fishing! we wanted to go zoo initially, but it started raining cats and dogs. hence, we just stayed at his house for pizza hut lunch. in the end, we decided to go prawn fishing! it was so fun! haha, i think its like a bonding session and we are like so excited waiting for the prawns to get hooked! so in the end, we only got one and the uncle beside us was soooooooo good that he kept giving us prawns! he's like a pro in prawn fishing, i wonder what techniques he uses man.

geek and i will go again the next time! yeay! can't wait yo. after one hour of fishing, we went to bbq the prawns, just by adding salt, the prawn tastes marverllous! yums! geek is getting more and more gentleman, haha. he does most of the work and didn't want his precious girlfriend like me to do the poking of prawns and bbq. hahaha, i love him to bits! go check out the pictures from his blog! http://rocktheshitoutof.blogspot.com/

belated CSCC day peektures!

2009-03-22T15:26:00.005+08:00

i'm here to post pictures that i took recently!

Rock on! Yes, PV in the house yo.

2009-03-18T08:43:00.002+08:00

heyyyyy, sorry for not blogging for that long. i guess i'm just too lazy to blog. BUT, i do check my blog everyday, just in case there are tags from friends. anyway, yesterday went to Mediacorp to catch Paranoid Vision (PV) on Life and Loaded. UTT IS SO HOT AND CUTE! HE TOUCHED MY HAND! i guess i won't be washing my right hand forever. hahaha.

PV did umm, not bad i guess. maybe just that christie is a little too nervous. i just can't really hear him clearly. we were screaming like crazy when they start to perform. Kaihui even jumped! how cool is that. haha. but overall, it's really a good opportunity to be able to perform on national TV. hence, good job.

anyway, work has been umm, okayyy. this is the forth week, which means one month and which means WE WILL GET OUR PAY SOON! i'm not going to use the money and gonna save it for Dalian trip. yup, i think thats all for now. tata~

2009-03-09T08:44:00.001+08:00

Happy 15th! ilu KTW a.k.a PKM! and i love Bali Thai too! Tom yum Seafood, Pineapple rice and chicken wings + keropok! Mama-mia! (((:

weirdos

2009-03-06T08:35:00.003+08:00

Liwei and i think that the poeple working in Design Phase are weird.

Firstly, there is a malay man named 'something something' looks like indian. He knows how to speak four languages. English, Mandarin, Malay and hokkien! Those aunties who talk to him speak hokkien or even he is the one who initiated to talk to them in hokkien. okay, close your eyes and imagine the scene.... haha, funny right! -.-

Amelia is a woman who is in charge of the Resource Centre(library). She's quite pretty, fair and looks chinese. However, after 2 weeks, we realised that she is a malay. The auntie talks to her in malay and surprisingly, she replied back. okay, close your eyes and imagine the scene.... haha, cool right! -.-

2009-03-03T08:41:00.003+08:00

my new love! AAR in the house yo. haha. Nick(the extreme right) shall be my new love (((((((: i think my friend looks like him. but it's okay, Nick is much hotter! so HOT!

2009-02-25T20:05:00.004+08:00

I was walking home and i saw this! When was the last time you've seen a rainbow? I saw one like 9 years ago and i was standing in the middle of the road taking picture when crossing the road, haha.

2009-02-25T19:50:00.008+08:00

what i've done for the second day of work. oh well, not very nice i know, butttttt, i have nothing to do and my sketches suck!

What a no life ITP i've got!

2009-02-25T08:41:00.003+08:00

Day 1- reached at 8am, slack outside till 830am. sit there until 930am, totally ignored. brought around at 930 and was told to packed the Resource Centre. Was told that the technician will come at 1230 to set up one more desktop for the 3 of us. Resource Centre: packed the materials books blah. It was so dusty and dirty and ewwww, just feel like washing your hands. Yet, there's no basin and have to walk very far to the toilet. Stayed in the resource centre from 930 to 5pm. Stone there all along. That's how ITP is like for the first day.

Day 2- Reached at 830. At 10, we were brief to read autoCAD drawings. Study the plans, elevations and detail. ALL the way until 530pm. GO HOME! That's how ITP is like for the second day.

I wonder how is it like for today(day 3).....

ITP!

2009-02-22T19:52:00.003+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. I'M HAVING MY ATTACHMENT TOMORROW! MY SUPERVISOR WILL BE ERIC ~~MANGO~~ MAGNO! oh welllllllll, wish me luckkkk! geek said he will come and fetch me from work on thursday! HOORAY! ((((((:

2009-02-15T14:51:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated V'Day! yesterday geek and i cooked. i'm in-charge of making desserts while he made fish 'n' chips. we went to get the groceries at NTUC EXTRA! and walked home. oh ya, if you may have noticed, the weather for these few days is FUCKING HOT! sweat like a pig after walking back.

we made mousse together and after that, start fring the fillet. hahaha, quite funny though. the whole kitchen was quite smoky. haha. umm, overall dinner was good. in addition, i want to add in sth. the cheese exploded right in front of me! we wanted to melt the cheese, so we just like put the cheese on a metal plate and placed it on top of the stove. thennnn, we smell char da! boom! geek opened the sparkling juice and i jumped. i said, wah, i thought it was the cheese that exploded. after saying. BOOM! the cheese exploded right in front of me. i was super shocked and stone for around a few seconds. haha, okay thats all for cooking.

after washing up, rushed down to harbour front. wanted to take cable car but it was too late so we didn't get to take it. waited for the bus that goes up to Mt. Faber as we wanted to go to Jewel Box to drink. we waited for half an hour and decided to give up. went to get starbucks to drink while chilling at vivo's deck. thereafter, cabbed home. oh well, though we missed quite some stuff, but i still enjoy the day. geek gave me flowers! yeah! (((((((((:

okie, thats all for the day. seeya.

2009-02-12T21:58:00.004+08:00

hello. i'm back to revive my blog. sorry my dear bloggy, has been neglecting you for so long. oh well. but i gotta choose my project over you. sorry. haha, okay, kind of lame. yeahhhhhh, i've done most of my work, or should i say i'm totally done! today went to print my panels, did 2 A1 panel. double oh well, tmr need to bring model of size 'SUPER BIG' together with panels to school. though mom is fetching me to school but still, like so many things! alright, last day. i shall not complain anymore.

sooooo, after printing panels, REM went to catch benjamin button. i didn't know brad pitt was sooooooooooooooo cute and hot. i will just drool when i see him half naked and even just wearing sunglasses. haha. he's damn fucking hot! how i wish i can just stand beside him and you can see me melting into puddle of oil. haha. OIL! lol. not funny. he's especially hot when he was 'young' in the show. he looks super cute! the baby face is like awwww, wanna pinch his face. okay, i think i really sound so sick and like some pervertic desperate auntie. haha. okay, gotta go yo. goodnight my darlings.

Happy Cny!

2009-01-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY! May you receive many many red packets, peeeeeeeeeepo!

p.s. Uploaded new video, it's Womanizer, not by Britney but All American Rejects (:

2009-01-22T13:23:00.009+08:00

2009-01-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

These few days, my friends and i are so into Wonder Girls. HAHAHA! I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU! Wonder girls! and we've been doing their actions when walking around school. i think we've become the singapore version of MAD GIRLS!

2009-01-14T16:21:00.006+08:00

New Year's Resolutions (after 2 weeks trial of 2009) :

slim down: targeted weight- 45kg
wear with more fashion sense
improve on my autocad drawings
save my family.
spend lesser money and save more
to go for another holiday this year end with family or geek's family
spend more time at home with my parents

2009-01-13T22:32:00.002+08:00

omg! i think i look so young in pinkkkk!

this is his coolest pose.

look at the clouds!

2009-01-11T20:40:00.003+08:00

hello! i guess i haven been blogging for very long. well, was very busy with my magazine retail project. my crit schedule is next tues! god, which is the coming tues lah. i'm afraid that my model is very ugly cause the workmanship is ug-ly! sianxzxzxz! haha, kind of cheena. anyway, today i went to cheng san CC to see geek and his brother get their bursary. he got 400 bucks while his brother got 220. piang! so shuang cannnnn! but i guess i don't have the chance either cause my result sucks to the core. haha. oh well. haha.

went amk central to get his skinny jeans and went popular. went amk hub to actually play arcade, but his nebo card is so troublesome! oh welllll welllll... went home and went on my cycling expedition. haha. it's really time to lose weight. oh ya, and i seriously don't understand why people keep reminding me that i'm getting fat and it's time to lose weight. wtf! i know i'm fat but like, do you have to keep telling me? sometimes it just gets on my nerves and i really feel like yelling at them! nbcb! okay, whatever. but sad to say, after i went cycling, i ate curry chicken. my mom cooked! not my fault. i have to eat dinner righttttt. grr! i shall do more cycling on my bed tonight.

2009-01-07T14:47:00.000+08:00

2008-12-28T13:33:00.014+08:00

i find that i shouldn't be too reliant on geeko. so i shall post some pictures that i favourably love aout and from Korea. check out more when geeko post it on photobucket.

2008-12-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

ANNEONGHASAEYO! MELISSA HA MI DA! i'm back from my korea trip. korea is superb! love it to bits! yeah! haha. i've been a korea fanatic since secondary one? haha. but when during year 1, i start to switch to being a Hongkie fanatic. haha. but still, KOREA ROCKS! SA RANG HAE YOOOOOO KOREAAAA!

well, i reached Changi airport around 5.45am in the morning and geek and his family were already there. at the start, wasn't that excited to go cause i will miss my parents a lot. seriously speaking, although i get to go korea and ppl may think that, wow, like so cool can go with boyf and his family, but still, its still better if i can go with my family right. oh well. anyway, took a 6 hours flight and reached Incheon Airport. it was still quite warm in the airport until we stepped out of it. we were like, WOW, cool leh! start to shiver a little and headed to the bus. the tour guide was okay luh, he's a korean but can speak mandarin. initially, couldn't really understand his mandarin cause he sounded like some cheena ass. but after that, got used to it.

checked in to hotel and had shabu shabu at some restaurant for dinner. not that bad, quite nice. haha, i still brought my lil notebook which i started writing since sec one. it was those lil conversations that i learnt from tv. had starbucks to keep ourselves warm. i only drank a few sips though. the weather there is very cold and dry, hence ppl drink coffee to keep themselves warm. thet have many many coffee houses there you know. and i can tell you, their coffee there is superb! tastes damn good. haha. or is it that you must drink at the outside to really feel the warmth of it. haha.

the second day, we went to some place and look at some stuff. haha, just like you know some site to understsand korea. some of their traditional looking kind of buildings. had lunch, steamboat again and went to coffee prince cafe. you know the korean show, yeah. and i ordered hot chocolate. yums! was very nice and poor geek, he ordered americano which sucks to the core. lol. awwwww, guess he must be damn sad. heeeee. went LOTTE world after that. it's like some theme park which consists of indoor and outdoor. we didn't go for the outdoor one as there's not much time and also, it's freezing out there. the theme park was not bad only cause geek's mom didn't allow me to take those thrilling rides. his brother and me took pirate ship(viking). geek actually wanted to take with us, but last minute, he backed out. haha, scary cat! lol. also played bumper car together. had dinner at lotte world and headed back to hotel. and fuck! lucky or what, i come menses at the wrong time. nbcb!

the third day, we went to the daejanggeum(da chang jin) site to take pictures. umm, was kind of cold at that time. took pictures of the site. geek's family don't really like to take pictures so most of the pictures are either site or the two of us. but well, it depends on personal. had lunch and went for spa. well, i can't cause of you know, so we went sauna and geek and i went for the foot reflexology after that. geek and his brother went for swimming while his mom and i went to gym. his dad wasn't feeling very well that day, so he missed the spa. after showering, we bought ice-cream and it was mama-mia! marvellous, bravo! very nice! we bought two flavours, caramel and coffee.. we moved to the ski resort cause the next day we're so going to skiing! the resort was kind big. geek's dad wasn't feeling well, so his brother and him came over to sleep with us cause the room was really big enough to accomodate 4 ppl. though we didn't sleep like side by side, but i'm still happpie!

the forth day we went skiing and skiing simply rocks! initially, i again have the phobia of learning new things cause i'm afraid i can't learn it well. but in the end, i think i'm not that bad. lol. skiing was fun yet funny. geek's brother is rather huge in size so there's one time, he ski and lost control and just like bang a group of ppl standing there. lol. damn funny. you can imagine the sight and the group of ppl tried to help him. hahaha. there's another time whereby mine was going at such a fast speed that i kept shouting, "go away! go away!" lol. in the end, i still fall lah. expected. lol. geek also fell until his ski board got caught in the fence. hahaha. damn funny. his mom also can't really ski and end up keep falling down. it wasn't really easy to get up when you fall. so i tried all ways to to prevent from falling. haha. skiing really fun, i really don't mind to go korea again to ski. had hotdog for lunch and tried korea's chorrus. the chorrus wasn't that nice and i was very disappointed because the other time i ate in japan was much nicer. went to return our ski equipments, had korean bbq for dinner. damn nice i would say. haha, totally love their food, except for those small appetizers cause really not my type of food. check-in to hotel.

the fifth day morning, we had breakfast and headed to Everland theme park! had fun there as in real fun cause geek finally took a roller coaster(without loop) with me. haha, we both screamed throughout and he was even louder than me. haha. we played the ski slide with his bro, see those lil animals, had lunch and played the roller coaster and flipper. was fun and again, we drank cafe latte. i bought chorrus again and this time round was super nice. the taste was exactly the same as what i've tasted in japan. love it to bits! thereafter, we went for shopping. the stuff there are nice but okay only. i bought quite some stuff to settle my present list. had dinner and went back to hotel. after that, we went to doota for shopping and i swear the stuff there are marvellous and their bags, shoes and etc are so nice that i really felt like staying in korea, work and just to shop there. rahhhhh. i bought myself a shorts and geek bought a belt there. i also bought a vans shoes the other day when shopping. gawd. im so simply in love with korea once again.

geek went batam today, leaving me alone in sg. miss him loads. i love you babyyyyyy (: i think you're super duper hot!

2008-12-14T23:01:00.001+08:00

I'M GOING ~~NORTH~~ SOUTH KOREAAAAA WITH MY HA PA DOG(geek). say YEAH!

2008-12-11T18:13:00.012+08:00

take 3

take 2

take 1

haagen dazs! (((((:

he just got stroke

yoyoyo! i haven't been blogging for some time. heeeeee. was too lazy to on laptop. well, i promised to post the one year pictures. yup! show you lah. heeeeeee. i gave him a ~~surprise~~ outside his house and ta-da! made him a cake. hope he likes it (: also made him a one year journal.. anyway, we had AZABUSABO for lunch. slurps! ramen, curry rice and macha ice-cream! went to esplanade to take pictures and settled our dinner by eating haagen dazs. double slurps! i show you pictures okayyyyy.

birthday and leaping of year!

2008-12-07T16:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA! YEAY!

HAPPY ONE YEAR BABY! I LOVE YOU, KOH TA WEI! will post pictures real soon!

2008-12-02T14:55:00.003+08:00

I'm here to tell you my Christmas Wishlist! Yeah! Get for me if you can. Double Yeah! I'll be getting Christmas gift from Korea i guess. But my parents only give me 200 bucks to spend there which includes some meals and to buy stuff. Like so not enough!

Red headphone. super more! (copy eel's)
Long Flowy Skirt
Hoodie
T-shirts! more! more! more!
Shorts! more!
Yak Pak/Eastpak backpack! mega more!

Done! I'm not greedy yeah? Share with your friends to get for me! I'll be very happy!

2008-11-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

refer to TaWei's blog for more posts. i'm just too lazy and busy to blog. heeeeeeeeeeeee.

wtf!

2008-11-16T19:51:00.003+08:00

pipipabibuuuu

2008-11-16T14:06:00.002+08:00

hello. yesterday went out with geek and i realised how important is for handphone to be existed. i lost my phone on friday night and i left it at global sounds after watching PV performing. i left my phone there unknowingly. gawd, it's like the first time that i'm so blur. i think i inherited eel and rach's bad genes of being so blur. urgh.

geek and i agreed to meet 230 at outside PS bus stop. so i reached around 3. he said he won't be late so i thought he's there alr. but i kept looking but he's not. i really have no idea where he is or if that he had mistaken the meeting place. i just felt so lost without a phone with me. i went to PS to look for public phone to call and he said he was there. so he was late -.-

we went to buy KOI bubble tea first cause he said he gonna treat me. lol. and we quarelled for a while because he is just so disgusting. well, i shall not say it here. went to the national museum to take a look. took quite a few pictures, shall post it when i get them. in the evening, went to get back my phone from hanliang and umm, met epsilon for bday celebration. i was so glad that this time round we never play pool. every outing just like so standard which is to play pool. haha. oh well, it was not bad.

eeeeeeeeehhhhhhh, i suddenly feel like having a baby. lol. umm, i passed by some friend's blog and she posted a few baby's pictures. they are so cute. i didn't know that baby can be so cute. i always think that they are irritating, esp when they cry because it is just so annoying. however, i guess i neglected how cute can they be at times. now i realise that being a mother is just so fortunate because they can really see how the baby grows, taking a step by step and etc. but well, wait till i get married then i shall have one. i can try the laughing gas like how cindy had. LOL

2008-11-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

i can't seem to think, i feel that i'm soul-less. is it because of me under too much stress? i don't have the drive, the fucking margaret drive in me to work! after doing supplement, i feel that i'm going on a holiday. like wtf? i still have a content box to do! it's a damn fucking content box you know, you know?! you don't know. since when will you know that it's a content box that i'm gonna do. and i'm so not knowing what am i suppose to do. so am i suppose to be happy now? tell me lah, you tell me. eh, tell me! okay, enough of ranting.

i've lost weight, yipee!

2008-11-10T20:38:00.005+08:00

Happy 11th months too!

on a lighter note: I'VE LOST WEIGHT! YAY! I'M 48KG AND I'LL NEVER HIT 5 AGAIN!

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2008-11-02T13:29:00.002+08:00

The person that tag or pass u is?
LUA SHIYING!

Your relationship with him or her?
GLs, welfare mates and good friends

Your five impressions of him or her?
happy, fun, good gossiper, good to hang out with

The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
when she organise events for us GLs everytime

The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
i love you

If he/she becomes your lover, u will?
i don't mind. LOL

If he /she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
try to be the guy, i be the girl. HAHAHA.

If he/she becomes your enemy, u will?
NO. don't want

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
she says she don't love me anymore

the most desired thing you wanna do for him / her is?
i don't know

your overall impression of him/her is?
marvellous! lol!

How u think people around you think of u?
don't know, don't care

The characters you love about yourself?
talks a lot and being retarded.

on the contrary, the characters u hate about yourself?
temper

The most ideal person u wana be is?
anyone who is perfect, which is no one but meeeee

For people who cared and like u, say something to them.
thanks for being there when i'm at the more depressed time of my life.

Pass this quiz to 10 person u wish to knw how they feel about u
1. koh tawei
2. eelaine
3. ruiqi
4. anita
5. shuhua
6. yy
7. yuping
8. cynthia
9. joan
10. shujuan

who is no.6 having a relationship with?
zhiyang

Is no.9 male or female?
female

if no.7 and no.10 are tgt will it be a good thing?
no, they don't even know each other

What is no.2 studying about?
interior design

When was the last time u chat?
just

What kind of music does no.8 like?
umm, pop? english i guess

Does no.1 have siblings?
yup. my 'best friend', koh taming

will u woo no.3?
i don't mind. i guess she will woo me too!

How about no.7?
i guess ben will kill me. lol

Is no.4 single?
nope

What is the surname of no.5?
ng

What is the hobby of no.10?
being at the hospital because she's a nurse. lol

Does 5 and 9 get along well?
they don't know each other lah. stop asking me the same qn!

Where is no.2 studying?
sp! change someone else to ask cannnn

Talk something casual about no.1?
i love no. 1 and thanks for being there whenever i need you, ha pa dog!

Where does no.9 live at?
batok!

What colour does no.4 like?
MELLOW says:
wad colour you like?

YADAYADA, Hissy fits says:
when you ask me i cant give you an answer man. i like dont know sia. hahaha

YADAYADA, Hissy fits says:
uh. green. red. black. white.

MELLOW says:
okie!

YADAYADA, Hissy fits says:
hahaha yea.

YADAYADA, Hissy fits says:
red la. makes me feel sexy

YADAYADA, Hissy fits says:
HAHAH

Are no.5 and no.1 best friends?
i don't think so. lol

Does no.1 have any pets?
nope

Is no.7 the sexiest person in this world?
okay lah. i think im better. just that im slightly huge. LOL!

What is no.6 doing now?
she never tell me leh

let me be happy

2008-11-02T00:14:00.009+08:00

i'm lonely, i'm tired

2008-10-29T14:26:00.001+08:00

i just want to die, someone please kill me. i don't want to commit suicide because its very dumb. so please use a knife and stab me real hard so that i can die right on the spot and never know how painful it is to continue living..

come come come

2008-10-28T13:16:00.006+08:00

Sometimes i really wish that i'm not a grown up because then, i will have to endure pain that i guess every child doesn't want to have. I just don't want my family to split but i think it's too late. Blame it that i'm not as lucky as others.

Hello all! Please try to come and support Eelaine and me at Global Sounds Cafe, Chinatown for our acoustic performance! It's this friday, 31st October. Try to dress like a ghost cause it's Halloween! You may tag at my blog and i shall contact youuuuuuu.

p.s. As scary as possible, thank you.

Korea?

2008-10-20T14:26:00.004+08:00

Hi. Last week, which is the first school of week has been okay. Except for the fact that we have to study rhino, which is a new workshop for us. The rhino is so annoying that sometimes i mistaken its name as hippo. Went for GLs chalet last weekend, had been fun. Miss the times during FO camp. We play, bbq, take pictures and drink. Drink, drank, drunk.

I have a good and bad news. I'm going and maybe not going Korea. I'm sad, really sad. Goodbye.

2008-10-11T01:30:00.004+08:00

Hellooo peepooos! HAPPY HALLOWEEN! (:

aftermath of 5 days of camp

2008-10-10T10:39:00.003+08:00

this is an incentive picture of my kitchen. my block is currently under paint furnishing. so imagine the workers are painting their way from above to my level, they will be able to see the undies and bra parade. HAHAHA!

hello! i'm back from ICE camp. well, it's fun and yeah, totally love it. but still, i don't know why i still prefer being a camper. being a FL is so tiring and even though youre damn tired, you still have to act as if youre very happy. i know i'm not those ppl who can cover up all my tired-ness. however, i have a lot of fun with my group, SAI sth, i don't even know how to spell my grp's name. haha. i mean they are really fun and i hope they can be very good friends with other campers and not just their cliques.

i also want to thank my GL partner, jun min for eing there to help each other out when trying to make our group high. i know he's quite shy but still, he tried his best to high so as to bring the group up. thanks alot. as for nightwalk, i also want to thank him for accompanying me outside the toilet when he can actually go into the toilet to scare the campers. thanks for everything. hope to see you around sch soon (:

2008-10-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

i know this is very photoshop.

and i know this looks evil. lol. i think i can be chucky. HAHAHA!

my boyf's HOT booty.. i know you feel like pinching. LOL!

this is my kungfu panda!

as usual, zooming in to my sexy mole.

peeeetures.

2008-09-28T22:58:00.004+08:00

Aftermath

2008-09-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

hello, i know i've not been blogging for very long. been lazy and well, busyyy to blog. recently, i went out with anita, attended LTC camp, going out with geek and today went out with joan.

went out with anita was good cause the both of us like aunties, never stop talking. lol. i think next time when i'm around 30 plus, i can be a typical auntie going to market then at there bargain with those butchers about 500g of pork. oh oh oh, we took alot of peektures but i've yet to receive.

LTC was not that bad just that i fuckingly lost my voice even before the camp started. i can't even teach the campers properly and i still have to use the loud hailer. like damn pathetic. i think i wanted to even bring the loud hailer to campfire. haha, but i think i will look so dumb with it. before LTC, i had a little gig together with eelaine at global sound. umm, friends turn out rate was not that appealing but still eel brought 3 friends to support. overall, the gig was considered not bad for me cause it was my first time performing and i guess my hard work of singing for the days was worth it. i'm having another gig on the 31st of october, again at global sound, chinatown. so do come down and support if you can make it. really appreciate that man.

went out with geek few days back, renting dvds to watch at his house has become a new hobby cause town and all turns out to be boring. no movies to catch either cause we actually wanted to watch 4bia but it's not showing anymore. thats sad. i've yet to cathc any thriller or horror with him yet. i think he will be hugging me instead. HAHAHA!

went out with dear joannnnnyyyy today. intended to go for sun tanning at sentosa but i guess the sun has been toying with our feelings. umm, not that bad luh, though two ppl may seem a lil boring. she treated me chocolates. thanks love! oh ya, i bought her bikini and gave a CD. i told her that i need to transfer her some stuff but actually was a movie that i made for her. hope she really likes it. cheers to 6 years of friendship and hope it will go on forever. bestie for life! and and and, she and ice-cream got me a top from NUM. thanks! like it alot. lovessss!

p.s. will post pictures when i got them. okay, i wont be blogging tmr or sth cause i'm going for ICE prep camp. i wonder how those ppl are like. please treat me well. LOL

eel and rachel are my besties!

2008-09-11T00:08:00.004+08:00

hello, i know its kind of late to blog about today's(10/9) outing. but well, okay we talk about on the 9th of sept first.

9th Sept: geek and me met at 12.30 to eat our long awaited shabu shabu at our favourite japanese restaurant. i was late, anyway, sorry. had a great time eating and enjoying our favourite macha ice-cream. thereafter, we intended to play bowling cause we have not tried it before together. but well, i'm not very good at it and i don't feel like wasting money on it. so wanted to play pool, but well, marina sq's was too expensive. so we ended up playing arcade. our favourite again, ta-ta-ta! and daytona. was like fuck! my car as usual buang at the curve. damn pek chek! meet my mom at 6.30 at IMM, was late and got scolded by her. okay, i'm just sick of getting scolded. anyway, that day was great cause i with geek! i want to thank geek for all he had done for me for my 18th birthday. thanks alot baby! ((:

10th Sept: theme: butch(suggested by me) i was supposed to meet rachel and eelaine at cine at 2 but well, i was late because i also don't know why. okay, i'm well known for my late-ness. anyway, on the way to town, eel told me she couldn't make it to celebrate birthday with me until 5 cause she had to work. i was like -.- that's so fake! HAHAHA! i knew all along that she would confirm come. haha. sooo, rach told me to meet her at second level, but i went to shit first before meeting her.

when i came out of the toilet, she was like, ''wait! cover your eyes!'' ''okay okay.'' so, she covered my eyes and brought me into the lift and went up. i really had no idea where she was bringing me to until she brought me into somewhere that is kind of noisy. i knew it was a restaurant. in addition, when she met me at level 2 just now, she put on a crown on my head. i think i looked damn stupid when walking into the restaurant with my eyes covered.

i sat down slowly, moving my fat ass in for her to sit and ta-da! eel was right in front of me! HAHAHA! mission failed! awwww.. LOL! kidding. we ate not alot, except for eel. lol. she finished up all the food. LOL. i was too full, know why? my mom bloody hell cooked one big pot of porridge and my dad and i stuffed ourselves with one mountain of porridge in our bowl. that is the reason why i cant eat that much of sushi. eel and rach paid for me and i swear i felt damn bad inside. firstly, it's a buffet and i at most only ate like 5 plates cause i was just too full. next, it's not that cheap and i know how it feels when spending so much money.

okay, neo print was up next! hooray! taking neo print was fun cause we look more pretty. lol. i think we looked cool inside cause of our outfit and poses. hahaha! really love those neo prints alot. and again, they paid for me ): but well, thanks alot. i love youuuu twooooo!

we went to skate park there and took even more photos with rach's cam. haha. we were like posing like crazy, jumping like freaks with all those skaters there thinking that why are 3 weird *act one guy* kind of girls here. lol. the pictures are funny yet cool okayyy.. haha

thennnn, they blindfolded me and bringing me to another place. i didnt know where they are bringing me to. they really planned it out well and i really had no idea where they are bringing me to. rach told the taxi driver where are we going before i enter the cab and even told him not to say out. lol. what's more she still blast music in my ear to prevent me from hearing anything.

we alighted at somewhere and they led me to a place with many escalators and i was like, wtf? knn, i felt so lost and blind because they suck at leading. lol. i feel as if i may fall anytime. lol. when i opened my eyes, i was at sentosa! LUGE! lol. was so surprised that they thought of me bringing me here and take luge. haha, they paid for luge and we went to play luge before taking skyride. luge was fun! hahaha, eel looked so noob when this is her first time. she was going so slowly and i key banging her. hahaha! rachel was behind so i couldn't bang her while she kept banging me! she shall dieeeeeee.. skyride was cool. we posed at the camera and they sang bday song for me. haha, so touched!

we went to imbiah station there to camwhore again. haha, then they brought me to a pavilion to take pictures. i know something's not that right. sooo, rachel said her friend was at the station and called her to go meet whoever was that. so she went. i knew that she was up to something but well, didn't really asked much. then rachel called eel to go down. so i was alone. rachel then came up to the pavilion and COVER MY EYES AGAIN and brought me down. filled with surprises eh! with those blindfolds and covering of eyes! LOL! when she removed her hands, i was so shocked! 18 chocolate lava cakes right in front of me. haha, i was sooooo damn touched! they sang bday song for me and i blew the candles like forever. lol. cause they bought the magic candles. hahaha! they took out a dress for me which is the real present cause initially they actually gave me a bday card and a bangle. well, actually so thats about all for today. i had dinner with rachel's family and they sang bday song for me. lol. so surprising.

last but not least, i want to thank those who celebrated and wish me bday wishes for my 18th birthday. i really feel very happy cause i missed out my last year's birthday due to my grandmother's passed away. thank you all and i miss my grandmother everytime when it reminds me of my birthday.

birthday surprise! I LOVE KTW!

2008-09-09T01:09:00.004+08:00

happy family forever please.

i think he looks good here, like kinda man. LOL

mom and me share to pay for this wallet.

bike by mom

converse shoes by geek cum a lil paid by me.

necklace by dad

hello.

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to Low Guan Yi(Melissa)
happy birthday to me!

I AM 18! FINALLY!

well well, geek first told me he's staying at my house till 12 to celebrate my birthday. thereafter, he changed his mind and said that maybe celebrate on the actual day itself. Then, tada! he first called me and said he left his ipod in my room. like wtf? okay, then he told me to go to videos and look at American Pie. like wtf? American Pie for five minutes? so i watched and cry.. LOL. it was American Pie at first, then it turns out to be our video. right from the start when we got together. haha, thanks alot baby. then while watching video, i saw him standing outside my room. i was like wow! he was holding ice-cream cake! i never had an ice-cream cake in my life before and this was the first. though it was strawberry which i don't really like, but still, i'm so touched! thanks alot and for the cahoots with my mom. HAHAHA! i didn't know my mom can act that well, she should have join Mediacorp long ago. lol. can win the best actress award. LOL. haha, and also to thank those who sms me birthday wishes. really appreciate that! ((:

i also want to thank:

my mom for buying me a bike and paid half for my birthday wallet.

my dad for buying me a necklace and the red packet.

geek for buying me converse shoes and the birthday surprise.

eddie for giving me red packet.

8teen!

2008-09-06T00:52:00.003+08:00

I'm turning 18 soon! I've been waiting for this day for very long. Haha. Today i celebrated my birthday with my family in advance. Mom cooked western food today, like finally moved on from chinese cuisine. Geek and me helped out and we made mashed potato together. It tastes good and i swear i love it. Initially in the afternoon i was quite sad because i have to go get my birthday cake myself because my parents are busy. But i don't know why i just feel as if that they don't care, but well, maybe i should be more understanding that they're busy. I'm really glad that geek was there for me and he knows how i felt at that point of time. Thanks baby.

Still, dinner was good but sad to say, geek did not get to cut the cake with me cause he had to leave earlier. I feel really down when he needs to leave but thereafter i was fine. Know why? Cause my mom actually bought me a bike for birthday so we went down to try to ride. My mom was actually trying to learn. I can't stop laughing but she really looked damn funny when she ride the bike. Her body was so rigid that it's like a block riding a bike. LOL. Okay, i know i'm kind of mean but still, had a great time with my family. I could really feel the love with them after a very long time.

get well soon

2008-09-04T23:13:00.002+08:00

hey baby, get well soon. soon soon soon, okay? lovessssss.

as promise

2008-09-03T00:05:00.002+08:00